Saturday, September 4, 2010

Tough Times

(cross posted from Coffee and Chemo)
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Summer is over, and I have been having a tough time.

Thank God, I had the strength to do things with my kids.  We all really had a great summer.

That said, I spent most of my time in bed.

I am still trying to find the right balance of pain meds.  This Thursday, I consulted with the pain specialist at my hospital and he said I should up the dose of my pain patch by 50%.  I will try it, starting tomorrow, when I switch the patch.

Meanwhile, I am so tired, I just want to sleep all day long.  I read a bit here and there, and then I am ready to go back to sleep.

The cancer makes me tired.  The chemo makes me tired.  The pain makes me tired.  The pain meds make me tired.  My kids make me tired.  Doing everything makes me tired.  Doing anything makes me tired.

Complain, complain, complain.....

2 comments:

  1. I do not have cancer and I have been so very tired myself lately, I can only imagine how you feel. Hope the new pain patches controls your pain RivkA, keeping you in my heart and prayers....,Hugs

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  2. You are allowed to complain, because we care enough to listen and to pray! This is the perfect forum to vent. I think it is important for us to be able to be honest about where we are at with our cancer. Sometimes we feel good and ready to conquer, other times we feel mauled. Sometimes we have a great attitude could face the giant, other times we can't even face the world.

    I love how you still are making your kids' life as special as you can. If you have an ounce of energy, you give it to someone else. You are a wonderful woman, RivkA!

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